When baking isn’t enough
Anything that lights your world leaves it dark once it’s gone ~ Ashly Lorenzana
The Cooking Chook has been a bit quiet in the last couple of weeks. I usually post a recipe every week, and sometimes I even do an extra post about something that I want to share with everyone. When things aren’t that great, I like to bake because baking is my refuge. It provides me with respite from all that is bad and helps me remember all that is good in this world. Unfortunately, the last couple of weeks have been exceptionally bad. Within the space of six weeks, the Universe decided to take three beloved people from my life; two of which were taken within a few days of each other. My sorrow was at such a depth that I couldn’t even bring myself to flick through my magazines or surf the internet to find inspiration or even a little cheer. I’ve been particularly fortunate so far, in that I haven’t had to experience the death of someone close to me in almost three decades. The last time someone close to me passed, I was too young to fully understand the repercussions of death. I totally get it now, and it hurts like you wouldn’t believe. The only time it doesn’t hurt, is the first few seconds of when I wake up in the morning and for that short amount of time, I forget what has happened. Then I come to the realisation of what I’ve lost, and my heart breaks all over again. Despite the heartache and sorrow, I’ve had the chance to spend time with family and friends who have been an immense comfort and support. I already knew that these people were special, but recent events have confirmed how lucky I really am to have these people in my life. You guys know who you are, and if I haven’t told you directly already, please know that I love you and couldn’t imagine a life without you guys in it. For those out there reading this, take the time to tell those who are dear to you how much you love them and make time to include them in your life. You never know when it will be the last time you see someone. I know that in time I will be able to continue with my life without hurting so much, but for the time being, I will just have to deal with the grieving process. Hopefully, I can ‘get back on the horse’ and start baking and feeling the joy again soon.